(hugs) – i hope you’re well.
as i mentioned in my previous post, i/we have been struggling with finding and maintaining the time and space for our familyoga rituals over the past few weeks. i attribute this lack of follow through to my own waning energy levels in the evening. though my necessary preparations for the familyoga are not especially difficult or extensive….some nights i just can’t muster the energy to move a few pieces of furniture, roll up a rug, sweep the floor and roll out mats (granted, the kids can and do help with the sweeping and mat unrolling).
also, i teach a lot of yoga. i have for years. i sometimes get burnt out. when i’m at home, in the evenings, i don’t want to talk about baddha konasana, or trikonasana, or savasana…..or any of it. now, this is certainly the exception, not the rule. this attitude of resentment appears when i feel like i am in a rut. and fake enthusiasm has very little to do with a practice that is rooted in self-awareness and discovery. so, i try to honor how i’m feeling while still maintaining my sense of joy about what we are creating.
and furthermore, isabel, dear isabel, is still trying to abort the familyoga process. she claims that she despises it – that she will runaway if we keep “making” her do it (i swear it’s not awful – the familyoga is not meant to be torturous). but, i keep in mind that she is an almost 13 year old girl, with strong opinions of her own. she is the oldest child (and as the oldest child myself) – i know that the first born, in general, can be demanding and rigid. so again, i’m finding and feeling my way along the path of how to proceed.
i vowed to stay open to the process – and last night, as i was contemplating setting in motion our familyoga ritual for the evening….a solution surfaced. it may not be a permanent solution. it may not work every time, all the time. but, it is rooted in hope and grace…..and for last night, it worked perfectly.
the girls and i did a walking meditation.
there ya go….i didn’t have any rugs to roll up, mats to unroll. i didn’t have to say a word about asana anything. it was different enough from the norm that isabel did not have any major objections….and it was a lovely evening for a walk. the guidelines were these: we would keep the walk short (10-15 minutes). we would walk, not run. and, we would not speak. so, we walked a familiar route together, through our neighborhood, in silence.
at the end of the walk, our house in sight, i said, “girls, when your feet touch the driveway, you can talk.” and they did. we had a lovely time. it was a good transition from the busyness of the day to the quiet of the night. as soon as we got home, it was time for teeth brushing, pjs and bed.
the familyoga practice evolves, by necessity…..by becoming aware of our feelings, our longings and our limitations – we have made the choice to grow. we can choose to see aspects of ourselves reflected in the hearts and minds of our loved ones. we can learn much about ourselves through our interactions and relationships with our families and friends. when we hold each other, in the light of our pure awareness, with a sense of love and accountability – our relationships embody ease and stability – and we heal the disconnects, push past the resentments and bring joy and happiness to their rightful place in our lives and our society.
peace and love, lisa d